February 2012
I hate that I can’t get enough of how badly you treat me. It’s like, I hate you, but I love you at the same time.
I’m relapsing again. I thought all these tears for you were done.
What the fuck.
The more I think about it.
The more I’m not over it.
So frustrated. Somebody’s got some big shoes to fill.
I’ll admit, I’m having a hard time trying to get along without you.
But it’s over and done with. So I’m trying.
The way I get over somebody.
Replace them.
Lately, I been tryin. All these other dudes that want me, but I’m not interested. They know it. I know it. I’m just tryna occupy my time. And they just tryna look bad with a bad chick on their arm.
It’s nothing real, of course.
It’s strictly me tryna forget about you.
So when you tweet bout the way I moved on quick, and you ain’t surprised. I did...
me on my period
me: why the fuck does everyone feel the need to piss me off
me: why the fuck don't guys have to go through this shit
me: why the fuck is world war 2 going on in my stomach right now
me: im fucking horny
me: when the fuck is menopause
When you know you won’t be able to ever get something you once had back, what do you do?
Do you keep trying and hoping for a change in your results? That’s insanity.
Or do you accept that you will never receive what you want oh so badly, and move on? That’s hard.
So what do you do?
Complicated.
“And you say things like you don’t give a fuck
Then I say I’m through with you
Take my heart from you
And you come running after me and baby I’m back with you”
Just reminded me of you. I can’t escape you. When I’m not busy, and I got time to think, my mind fixates on you. But ima get over it, I will. Especially after all that you said.
Words hurt...